you may not believe it but it has been an incredibly stressful time for i'm doing this on my own, because i need to do this myself. i need to get this over and done with, as i believe that its the only way that will enable me to start making things properly again. i haven't been progressing, even though i delude myself with positive thoughts and trying out new stuff. in actual fact i still haven't been living life properly, but right now at least i'm taking a step in trying to. i need to get better. i need to make everything right.
i've discareded 8 full bags, and counting, yet this place still looks like a sty.
i'm aware that i am clinging on to too much of history, yet finding it hard to get rid of most of it. i'm too obsessed with holding on to the past that it gets in way of the process. but the battle is part of the healing process i guess.
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| record book from 2005 |
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| history books from secondary school, handmade books from leftover paintings of ex students |
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| a primary school project on elizabeth choy. it came in 6 pcs, the other pieces were discarded possibly in 2004 |
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| test print of a lithograph in early 2008 |
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| tearing out sketchbook pages from com d and throwing these hand bound books away. | i made too many books that are not of good quality then. |
