i shudder

because i know everybody will slowly disappear around me




I remember how i used to wake up and tell my reflection in the mirror , " smile ,because today will be a good day "

I remember how i used to walk to school alone , and before reaching the gates , i'd tell myself , " smile, because everything will be okay "

Well, it seems that all these don't work anymore.



i miss the times when i was ignorant to everything around me. ( i couldnt even tell sarcasm)
everything was just about me, i couldnt even remember the others, except for their face and the names put to theoe faces.

I used to be so happy and free. But gone are the days now.

I've started to become more conscious about the people around me , their behaviour, actions , so much that sometimes they affect me more than it should.
I let them affect me.


I hate that we are separated by barriers - the walls and the racks. What happened to the days when we were young?




today i felt so alone.